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24.08.03 - 12:06 p.m. well last night was almost the greatest night I've had in a long time- we went out, he was happy, I as feeling pretty good mostly just college anxiety looming over us both I guess. But we had a date, or the closest thing to a date we've had in a long time, which I think I really needed. I know I need some great quality time with someone who will just make me feel good to get me out of theis funk. It was cute- we had dinner with his parents and he was all over me which felt good but I couldn't do anything about it as we we not really alone and my "friend" came for a visit just yesterday of all days. We went and saw American Wedding- which actully much funnier than I ever thought they could make it. Everything went well till maybe the last 10 min. I brought up that I was free the next two days from work, and he wnet into how he will be busy the next "6 months" which hurt like a bitch becasue thats not what I needed at all. It left me feeling more unwanted and alone then ever. But I gess that's how it's going to be for the next few months.
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